It's exactly Ron and I's fourth month together and I'm feeling very lonely.. I've been thinking a lot lately and I kept on telling myself that our relationship wasn't working out... that we have to end all these shits...
While I'm on the bus going home, listening to the radio, I heard You'll be safe here (Rivermaya) and it remind me of him, I can't help but cry, the tears kept falling off my eyes, thank God, I'm sitting with no one...
I am trying to understand his situation, but everytime I do, someone inside me kept on telling me that I'm the only one trying to work our relationship out...
I'm so confused right now, I won't write this on my LJ or GJ so that this blog entry wouldn't attract any attention, I really wanna ponder about this one for a while...
I still love him, but I can't feel his love anymore... and I don't know if I should end our relationship because things might just get worse when I found out that all of these crap that I'm talking about are so untrue...
Maybe I just miss Ron... I wanna see him but I know I just can't specially when he told me that he thinks his mom doesn't like me... I know it's true, I feel it... I just want to talk to him, to clear all of these weird thought of mine... I'm trying hard not to think too much about this topic, but whatever I do, I just can't help but cry.
I don't blame him if we have no communication at all, sometimes I just pray that he haves the time to even send me a message, talk to me or any of those stuff... I'm doing all I can to save our relationship, but I wanna give up, I can't take this any longer... but I don't wanna let go, I just don't...
If ever you're reading this Ron, I love you, Happy Monthsary, and belated Happy Birthday. Please talk to me... I just need to talk to you... Or please even have the time to reply to my messages.
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she thinks Ashlee Simpson is another rocker wannabe. AND YET I'M USING HER IMAGE AS A LAYEE, PATHETIC RIGHT?
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