Damn, I'm missing you...
Oh, I am always thinking of you...
Yeah, I still will always love you...
And yes, I have to admit the fact that our relationship isn't working well. I'm having this feeling that I'm the only one who's making effort in this relationship. I just have to face the fact that things between you and me have changed. I am trying to understand, telling others I am fine, telling them that we're still pushing through this relationship.
I don't wanna give this relationship up, I won't unless you said we're through.
I love you, is that all you want me to say? I'm beginning to think that your love for me had fade away. That it's gone and can never be regained. But still, I'm trying to be open minded here and think about how your life as a student as well. I know it's the reason, you've been busy with your studies right?
So what?
What else do you wanna hear from me?
That I'm alright?
Try asking me that question and I'll tell you that nothing's going wrong and guess what, you're actually believing I'm ok. Are you really that insensitive Ron? I'm hurt here ok?!
And why am I writing this when you won't read it anyway. I'm just only wasting my time.
But I just hope you will be reading this.
I just wish you're the same Ron I knew 6 months ago. I'm loving you from months now, but is your love for me really gone? You haven't even replied to one of my messages, I can't contact you and I think you really don't have any time for me.
I'm trying not to cry while typing this, please Ron, I'm always praying that someday you'll tell me you still care, that you still love me.
I think I'm being paranoid, but I'm having this same feeling all the time. See, I have this classmate you thinks you're the lamest boyfriend ever, I cried at those words because I you're not, I kept telling them that they don't know you better than I do.
And will that reason stop them from telling me to break up with you? I mean, how shallow is that for a break up or even to start a conflict between us. I won't ask for a break up unless I've proven that they're right, until they've proven that you don't love me.
Ron, maybe I just miss you. I'm so sorry if you ever interpret this letter as if I'm angry with you, to tell you the truth, I'm angry at myself right now, I can't seem to live each day without thinking if you're alright.
I guess I should end this letter, I know you wouldn't read this one anyway.
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>",< Garette
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